Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Say hello to my not so little friend

Ah, it feels so good to have my friends back in the living room with me: The Biggest Loser is back! The premier tonight was nothing short of shocking. They found a new heaviest person ever on the show weighing in at 476 lbs! That would be 3.5 of me. Wow.

I find myself overcome with tears during BL, especially at the beginning when they introduce the new people of the season and they share their stories. Bob said it right, they have a lot of baggage this season. This is season 8 now and I only started watching it last season. It came right at the time when I had already made the decision to change my life. Hubby never really understood why I watch this show but he always supported me in my desire to lose weight and change my life.

When we're running at night and I'm having a hard time, I hear their voices in my head saying, "Don't quit. Don't give up. You can do it. Finish strong." It was never an option to quit or not run when I had the chance. Some days my run are a total struggle and my time is the worst ever. But I've learned to recognize those days are actually pretty rare and I am able to recognize the signs to set myself up better for a good run. And oh how I treasure the amazing runs where conditions were absolutely perfect and I extended my distance with no pain and my heart filled with pure excitement.

My "trainers" are back and I have new friends. I think this is going to be a great fall to continue my running and add some additional things to our workout. The last 6 weeks or so my weight has been pretty uninspiring. It's remained around the same 2lb flux, but I've not been able to shave more pounds. It's been a bit depressing and I've been reading a lot about what is physically and psychologically happening. I can try this or that, but most importantly: I'm not stopping.

I'll never give up. The scale will come around eventually and I'll be excited when it does, but I have my friend (real life friends & TV) back giving me that extra excitement and encouragement. I remember this time last year when Tara, Helen & Mike joined me on the journey. I look forward to my new friends. We are all going to do such great things over the next few months!

Monday, September 7, 2009

Whoa slow down

I've noticed a theme of two problems: 1. I'm too busy or worried to enjoy the moment and 2. I take on too many things at once and they all suffer. I think these themes are actually pretty common in women.

Right now I am sitting at a table in a simple, but very comfortable chain hotel looking at the window to a small marina near Hermosa Beach in LA. It's been a great weekend here with our friends, but I spent so much time & energy thinking, "How we doing on time?", "I gotta do this that and the other to leave the room on time to make it to the boat.", "I plan on packing tonight so I don't have to do anything in the morning...so we can leave at 6am."

Well, it's 7:47 (according to our - seems to be off a tad - alarm clock) and hubby is still sleeping and I'm obviously on the laptop. Hubby told me last night that I need to simply enjoy more and not worry so much about getting to the next thing. I took a deep breath and said, "You're right." And he is. I've probably lived like this my whole life too just going from one thing and can't wait for the next. Pretty soon I'll be 29 and I'll just breeze on to 30 without enjoying the last year of my 20's.

It's just so hard for me because I know all of these things that have to be done. I want to leave at 6am because I'd rather the drive take 6 hours instead of 8 in traffic. I have laundry to do at home and we need to go grocery shopping and get a new dress shirt for hubby... He doesn't realize all these other things we have to do, but we're going to take the morning like true Californians and set an alarm, but still sleep in and grab some breakfast at a shack on the beach and then drive back. I'm just trying to go with the flow.

So right now I'm going to the lobby to get some coffee and then start packing a bit, but no pressure - hubby is still sleeping.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Half way there!

Earlier this summer I got an email from my friend Erin that said. "Hey E, I've been putting together this volunteer opportunity and I am one person short of getting this off the ground. I remember our talk before when you told me you wanted to get more involved in the community and I think you'd be great for this. Give me a call sometime if you have time and want to learn more." Oh, so that's how I remember the email going.

I called her that very day and the volunteer opportunity is at this non-profit in East Palo Alto. I wrote before about the fun on the playground. New Creation Home is the place and Erin and I started teaching a call there Wednesday nights on jobs. Tonight was our 2nd class out of 4 and I think it's going really well.

At one point we had 11 young ladies interested in taking the class. The source of these young ladies come from the Tuesday night parenting class. From a short survey, we thought - wow! How are we going to handle 11 students AND their more than 11 children? We decided to take the ones that were super dedicated first and thought we could reasonably handle 6.

Day one was last Wednesday night and we had 3 students! I thought this was a success. But even more of a success is that all three girls also showed up tonight! I am thrilled. We form the class in a circle and have great discussions. Last week we covered resumes and cover letters. This week we talked about what to wear, what not to wear, interview question examples and illegal questions.

Erin and I had great fun role playing and the girls are so smart! I am really impressed and I will be so happy if we can close that last 5% with them and give them the confidence and knowledge they need to get a great job!